I recently noticed that I am troubled by too intense friendships. Not only troubled but terrified. The reason behind this I don’t know, I just know that as soon as I get the feeling someone is attached to me, getting close to me, I try to get away. Maybe I’m frightened to be responsible for them somehow. Maybe I’m frightened to get suckered down into their sadness and problems, that I won’t be able to endure this, that it would make me too sad to bear it. Fact is I go in a state of total avoidance, turn off my phone, vanish pretty much entirely. Pretty egoistical.
Sometimes it makes me sad that I don’t really belong anywhere. I fit in fine wherever I want, but only for a short amount of time, because as soon as people are getting too close I detach myself, try to detangle myself from the social bonds. I am alone with my problems, this is what I have chosen. Most days I’m happy. And still, I am afraid of being utterly alone, of someday being lonely and not being able to change it anymore because I have pushed everyone who ever cared for me away.
I am making really good progress on these. I turned the heel, shaped the gusset, and now we are going up the calf. The mods I made to fit around my foot are working great too, so I’m really excited that I didn’t mess it up with my tinkering.
Amazing *_* So going to buy the pattern, thanks for linking it before!
your shitty first project i am not kidding post it i want to see it
your tom baker scarf, your jayne hat, your afghan with minecraft blocks or mario mushrooms or homestuck symbols, i do not care if a squillion people already posted theirs i want to see yours
your personal ramblings about your wip’s, your argh-i-quit-not-really moments, your blurry phone pics of your cat sleeping on half a scarf, it doesn’t matter that i don’t know you, you are adorable and so is your blurry cat
the patterns you like whether you knit them or not
yarnbombing sure why the hell not
everything about your knitting
all the knitting things
things i don’t want to see on the tag:
fashion models wearing a sweater made from flat factory machine-knit fabric cut out and sewn together
yarn company spam 50 photos long
anyone bitching about other people posting their personal knitting stuff as if the knitting tag isn’t for everyone
psa thank you i’m done
My rule of thumb, if it has a store label (that wasn’t hand sewn in) don’t put it in the knitting tag. I don’t like garments from my job in the knitting tag, and there are a ton.
I think with the new Tumblr search, they’ve mixed the knit, knitted, and knitting tags, hence all the store bought knits, so just go to www.tumblr.com/tagged/knitting and you’ll get the good old fashion tag that has projects in it and not the mash that the new search engine is, or switch out the word “search” to “tagged” in your search bar when you searched knitting to get the same result. This new search has seriously hurt the sharing of my knits to the knitters of Tumblr, and I really think that that has hurt our community.
I agree with the I don’t care how many Jayne Cobb hats or Tom Baker scarves are in the tag, people work really hard on them and I want to see them, even if I don’t reblog them or like them it doesn’t mean I do not look at them. I check out the knitting tag every morning, when I get home from school or work, throughout the day and before I go to bed. I love the knitting community and I think the new Tumblr search has ruined that.
Maybe all of us knitters need to think up a new tag than knitting so all of our projects can be there. I can’t think of any.
How about using #selfknit or #handknit? I think we need a new tag, too.